This month, BlogHer established a theme of HEALING for National Blog Posting Month (NaBloPoMo), under the premise that “America needs to heal after the events of Ferguson, Missouri.” On August 9th, 2014, a police officer in that Ferguson gunned down and killed an 18 year-old, unarmed black male teen, sparking outrage and protest around the nation. The county autopsy shows the cop inflicted Brown with six gunshot wounds to the head and chest. The Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI) has opened a civil rights investigation related to the shooting.
My daily articles this September will focus on healing for the most part – in keeping with the theme. I can tell you outright that I will never fully heal from the murder of Michael Brown. This case of yet another unarmed black male killed by a police officer just reminds me that I’m always making progress in the midst of heartbreak. Finding joy – in the midst of heartbreak. Pushing forward – in the midst of heartbreak. Under the weight of anxiety for my own two sons and the rest of our sons. I build them up, and fight for them in the midst of heartbreak. In battle mode even when I’m resting. Never healing, because every week it’s the same damn thing.
I do pray for healing for the Brown family, and for other families whose sons, daughters, fathers, brothers, uncles, etc, killed at the hands of rogue authority figures in uniform, and otherwise. It’s just nearly impossible to heal when every shooting, every unjust arrest on racial profiling, every murder, every case of railroading, and every case wherein the justice system fails the victim reminds us of our gaping wounds.
I have two sons. I have anxiety. I’m heartbroken. I’ll be writing to affect change, and spark dialogue for now. Oh, this month, I’ll write about being an empty nester too. I have more time on my hands to join grassroots efforts.
Thank you for joining me on this journey. If you have thoughts on healing, the Michael Brown case, or anything related, feel free to chime in.