Ever feel like you’re up to a bunch of stuff, but at the same time, you feel like you’re not doing much at all?
I got used to juggling a lot all at once, what with raising three now-grown children. And then I had to learn how to relax for the first time. I’ve been a mother since I was 16.
I was chatting with a friend this morning about advanced education (getting Masters degrees), and I remembered how I went to school full time (3 to 4 classes per semester) to earn a BA, worked a full time job, raised three small children (parenting primarily by myself), maintained a household, and trained hard in the gym and lost 60lbs (over 3 years). And there were many crises during that long stretch of time. I’m not saying I did any of that perfectly, because it’s impossible to give a million things 100% of your effort and attention. And there’s no such thing as a perfect person. But it got done.
And here I am. My children are grown, although not yet self-sufficient, and I’m ready to go back to school for a Low-Residency MFA in Creative Non-fiction.
Of course it will be challenging! Of course I’ll have some tough days! Of course it will be both thrilling and rewarding! Of course I’ll have help along the way. And of course I can do it. So what is there to complain about? (I do have some resistance to writing my application essay, but I’ve started it!)
What else am I thinking about?
I’m thinking about doing things that raise my vibration. Things that make me happy. Enjoying and appreciating. Still on a high from my weekend with LB. He’s very supportive of me expanding as far as writing, but also protective. Sweet.
I’m thinking about traveling.
I’m thinking I should wrap this up and focus on work. We’re in a bit of a lull here.
Cheers. (Oh, I recently learned that in Britain, only men say “cheers” – not women. And it’s mainly used in the context of a “thank you” – versus a salutation like we “Americans” use it. Well whadduya know?)
So what randomness is going on in your life or thoughts right now?